A week from sunday! A week from sunday? Christmas is here in a week? That is not a lot of time! I haven't bought Daniel anything for Christmas, ayayai. Turns out all that being ahead of the game for his family came back and bit me as his family decided to do buy one person a gift exchange after I bought and shipped them all presents. Yes, i feel a tad frustrated. Grrr. I am in need of a big attitude change. Dear Lord, work on my heart! Please help me get out of my own selfishness and self-righteousness. Hopefully before we leave!
Has anyone else read Real Simple's article on holding grudges? I realized recently that I hold grudges (another awful residual effect from my nightmare year in dc) and I identified with the author of the article about holding grudges, and maybe (maybe!) the need to let go. Note, that most of my grudges are retroactive, meaning the person had to repeatedly offended me until i built up enough bad feelings about them to realize it (sometimes wiping the slate clean is not a good thing) or it was only in looking back/experiencing better friends that I realized: "hey, that person wasn't very nice to me, actually, they were awful, why did i think that I was their friend?" yea, have a few of those. I guess the first step is acknowledging it. The second step is humbling myself enough to create space to let God's grace work in my heart. Ah! Learning to forgive! It used to be easy! Now it is not!
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