i miss working. staying home and being a mom is one of the most humbling lessons i have had to endure. professionally, i did everything wrong. i only taught for one year before moving and then did another one year stint, now i am not working. don't have a lot of experience or continuity. how will i ever be able to make it back into the workforce?
yeah, being a mom is important and evelyn will benefit so much from having me stay home. Yet, the selfish side sometimes creeps in and screams : at what sacrifice on your part!! Yes, folks, it is a sacrifice to stay at home and not put myself and my career first. At the same time, it is not that hard; it is what you do when you have kids: put them first.
And it's a huge step of faith for me to not worry about entering the job force again. I really enjoy work. It brings a lot of joy and meaning and purpose to me. I want to work again and be on the top of my profession and succeed and achieve. My friends will hit their stride probably when I am getting ready to go back and that will be hard for me, to be at the bottom rung. Don't want to be there, don't like being there, shouldn't be thinking about this. Ahh! Lord, you are in charge. Prepare a way for me to go! To you be the thanks and the glory. Amen
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