So there's this big event that I am planning (without any coffee!) and today, we, the organizers, came in contact with our worst nightmare that could ever happen for the event. Luckily, by God's grace, it was resolved in a matter of moments, with only the slightest strain on our limited budget. But oh, those minutes, where I saw the whole deal unravel, the panic building within my veins, were a huge shot of adrenaline and dread. After it resolved itself, I thought the episode slightly funny and another ode to murphy's law. How could such a huge communication become a miscommunication? Not sure, but it did. And what did I learn?
Grace grace grace always wins. I can have nightmares, experience awful emotions, but they don't have to get the better of me. I don't need to despair, but rather I can act and press on because grace abounds.
The way I reacted in this situation was way different how I succumbed to worst nightmares in my life a couple years ago. For some reason, when I lived through those awful situations, I could not connect to any sources of grace. Not that Christ wasn't there, but there were also very real presences of dark forces that made it extremely hard to get my head above water. When Rowling describes dementors in the Harry potter series, she nails what I felt. The life and goodness and abilities to rise above the situation were sucked out of me. It was awful and I am so thankful I am somewhere else. Doors were closed there, worst nightmares endured, and now a new phase of life is to be entered.
Thank goodness! Life is horrible without grace! That is christ's gift and promise to us- we can have grace and life and to the full!
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